What are days for?

Days are where we live. They come, they wake us. Time and time over. They are to be happy in. Where can we live but days?

go the distance July 23, 2008

Filed under: troubled soul — nafnaf @ 10:44 pm
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abah pon sudah mulai baca blog ini, dan telah dikomen kerana mengunakan bahasa rojak “)

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sejak balik dari korea, terpaksa aku akui dunia ku agak tunggang terbalik. terlalu banyak yang aku mahu selesaikan, tapi pada masa yang sama, aku tahu yang aku harus focus pada satu. terlalu banyak gangguan menyebabkan kerja akan kurang produktivitinya. ya, seperti bulan ini.

aduhai , kenapakah susah bagi kita untuk mencuba yang terbaik? kita mahu yang terbaik dalam hidup, mahu anak-anak mendapat pendidikan terbaik, mahu breakfast di old town coffee kemudian  minum petang di Starbucks,segala yang hebat. mahukan yang terbaik, tapi jika bukan yg terbaik kita mampu berikan pada diri sendiri, adakah yang terbaik itu akan datang bergolek dengan sendirinya?

aduhai diri, aku mahu bangkit dari kealpaan. tuhan tolong daku, aku perlukan kekuatan. aku mahu keluar dari kemalasan ciptaan diri sendiri, aku mahu bangun gagah melawan nafsu mahu bersantai. aku mahu membuang sangsi, sangsi yang datang tiap hari, sangsi pada kebolehan diriku untuk berjaya.

semangat & percaya pada diri mulai hilang.

Sky is white; trees are bare,
Been a while since I stood here, 

I feel cold, so alone,
Yet the wind whispers ‘hello’ when it blows,
When it blows…

Fallen angel, with shattered dreams,
Trying to make some sense of all i’ve seen,
Let it go, let it go, troubled soul,
Let it go, let it go…’

Wounded spirit, troubled soul,
Fallen angel, let it all go,
Just believe and I will see,
All the good things  life can be…

And as dusk turns to dawn,
Still i’m battling in my thoughts, 
I feel lost, so alone,
And I wonder can I carry on,
How amazing my life would be,
If I held on, long enough to see,
Let it go, let it go, troubled soul,
Let it go, let it go…

I want to believe & keep on trying.

 

wat’s in the future for me? July 4, 2007

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yesterday i woke up cranky, end up not going to work and had lots of thoughts floating in mind till my head spinning.

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dun get me wrong, i do not hate my job, but i simply don’t love them. i wanted to do sumthing i can spill my energy but yet still had fun doing it. and i do not want to be employed my whole life. but until yesterday, i still can’t make up my mind.

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so, we went to watch transformer yesterday, but then i felt guilty doing so. i suppose to be at work! then i went to giant, bought a few things, until i went into this jamu-jamu shop. tahulah aku ni kan terlebih peramah, jadi sempatlah berborak ngan the owner. wah, she owned more than 10 kiosk all around malaysia. she started doing bisnes 15 years ago, and now look at her owning even small shops, but still..wow! sorry to say, kalau terselisih kat pasar, aku akan ingat dia ni an ordinary makcik.

i tell her about my fear “nak bisnes la kak, tapi takut”

‘kalau takut sampai bila pon tak boleh, akak dulu takut jugak”

aha…semua yg terjadi came clear to my mind, dari pagi malas nak pegi keja, nak keluar jumpa orang tapi she was busy…. everything happened for a reason!

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i finally gave a serious thoughts about getting into bisnes. first step first, and doing it the old fashion way, i have to register for kursus keusahawanan.

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waduh, kepala masih berat & I am scared!